I've stopped waiting.
Maybe I'm too still, a consequence of silence I'm creating.
Let my thoughts consume my mind, my own body betrayed me, it took the hope from my life.
Now I'm afraid to face most things.
I'm not sure what I want, is it tomb stones or wedding rings?
Cowardice keeps me from that light, so I remain, trapped by my dull life.
There were never any problems; only mutations in my brain.
They ruined my existence, taking everything over with pain.
I've stopped waiting around.
I'm probably too still.
That's a consequence of always keeping silence around.
Lost interest in habits of sleep; a harsh reality in favor of my dreams.
This day will never end. I can't stop the emptiness from pounding in my head.
So I'm still.
released January 29, 2013
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